"The miracle" fucking side effect.

Well, like a corollary that I often cite about "the fucking law of life," or rather, "the fucking law that rules my fucking life, "nothing is so bad that it can't get worse."

Many people - or a few selected friends of mine - that still reads this blog, and its walls of fucking lamentation, might often wonder, "Why the fuck's this guy - who has everything, in a way - is often so damned cranky?"

Well, because, as the Murphy's Law addendum says, "Nothing's so bad that can't get even worse."

I found all about it last night. 

I am one of the selected few(1%) of the choosen people, fuck me, that is prone to a fucking side effect of the so-called "miracle" I'm taking, on the pill form, everyday.

I am the 1 percent. That just can't. Get. It. UP.

Meaning, I'm, all of a sudden, fucking IMPOTENT. Limp fucking dick.

Just exactly what I needed to make me even more crankier.

Yeah, just like I always say, "It can, and it WILL get even worse."

I am the one percent.

I feel so damned lucky.

You take a potentially dangerous drug, has to give up on cheese, Baileys, pizza, lasagna, and so many other things, and now...I had to give up SEX as well. Because my fucking dick doesn't work anymore. And, from what I've read on the fucking net, it's not one of those side effects that will endure for a while then fade away. It will persist, for as long as I'm taking the fucking drug.

The so-called "miracle" is making me feel even more dead that I used to be. Because, from now on, I just can't blow off some steam, at least not on a sexual way.

On the "bright side", I don't have a lover. At least that. Meaning, I won't get to disappoint no one, but myself, and myself alone. 

Fuck my life. Fuck Parnate. Fuck Pamelor. Fuck Rivotril. Fuck it ALL.

Like Donnie Darko said, "Smurfs are asexual. They don't even have reproductive organs under those little white pants. That's what's so illogical, you know, about being a Smurf. What's the point of living... if you don't have a dick?"

That's what I am. A fucking smurf. I don't have a dick. At least, not one that fucking works.

Fuck it all to HELL. You give up the one thing - the illegal marijuana - that would let me unwind for a bit, and now I just can't even unwind in a sexual way.

Yeah, they could say I was a fucking WANKER, as the British says - well, not anymore. Can't even wank. Because I just can't.

Life is shit. And will keep on getting shittier. 

Fuck. My. Life.