I ate, I saw, I ate, I've eaten,
now's the time for sleep,
now's the time to shut the drapes,
using these chemicals, fine pills
that will take me away,
from here, from there, everywhere,
all at once, all over again.
Yet it makes no difference
sleep won't find me tonight,
not here, not there
not anywhere
I lie awake, and I fucking stare
at the fucking ceiling,
counting holes, counting sheep,
doesn't matter,
sleep will not be coming home
tonight.
I lie, and wonder, about all I am,
all I care, all I said, all that shouldn't
have said, perhaps, no one gets it,
no one ever will, the Monster's
awake and lying still.
I toss and turn, roll and rise,
to the bathroom I go,
nothing happens.
nothing ever happens.
The night, surrounds me,
on its dreary silence,
and its dreary thoughts
that will never let me go,
not here, not there,
not anywhere.
The night's get cold,
I am awake, lying, lying, lying
lying awake, to myself,
to everyone else,
to everyone everywhere
night, unforgivable night.
sleep comes, sleep goes,
in a serie of misformed dreams,
unfinished dreams,
unfinished business,
unfinished life,
life! it leads into the night,
bleak and cold, silent still
silent killer of my awoken dreams
all around me, the tiny night
creatures roam, and feed,
on my papers, on my other bugs,
but they'll never eat me
like this night has done,
swallowed me whole,
and won't let me go.
creatures of the night,
rejoice, for this is an endless night,
it will never end, not again,
not tonight, never, never, ever.
I lie awake, lying awake,
to myself, to my thoughts,
to my dreams, dead and gone,
i lie to hem: begone.
forever, alone.
Sleepless I sleep,
once and again, I see,
dreams and fragments
of the day and night,
night and day,
awake in the fucking night.
tonight, I feel,
nothing's gonna save me
nothing's ever going to come
nothing happens, no one cares,
no one dares, to let go
of the sleepless dreams
toss and turn, roll over and over,
3:20 in the AM, nothing at all,
nothing happens, nothing will happen,
since I'm lying still,
lying
to the
night.
lying
to myself,
to themselves,
to everyone else,
everywhere, anywhere.
lying, I lie. I lie and lie
and pretend it ain't so,
that it can't be so,
but it is - it fucking is
sleeepless in the Tower,
lying awake, lying sleeping,
always lying and lying,
to themselves, to myself,
to here and now, to the
sleepless wall of dreams,
once here, now gone, begone.
All I do
is to lie
all I can do
is to lie
waiting,
waiting,
counting hours,
counting sheep,
counting the lies
I've told myself,
I've told themselves,
I am a lie.
I've always been a lie.
fucking lie, fucking lying
awake, trying to sleep
and get rid of them lies,
impossible, can't be done,
not tonight, not ever.
I am a lie.
