Aristab. (aripiprazol)
I've seen my impatience
thru generations, 1977
nineteen seventy-seven
Ass old as punk rock
as old as a young meteorite
that has fallen from the sky
almost fourty years ago.
the sky, skies,
had lost a star that night,
a supernova, caused it
implosions
and explosions
a giant, massive
black hole
left inside of
me.
a black hole
inside of
me.
you were nothing but
the spark
of explosions in
the sky,
explosions
inside
the cerebral
tissue
a black hole
inside
me.
chemicals,
chemicals
they sought
tobring back
what was left
of that explosion,
yet they fail,
they fail.
there's no coming back
from the black hole
there's no exit,
no way out,
from this giant mess
you've left behind,
in my head,
there's no way out from
myself, for
I
am
a
giant
black
hole
in the
sky.
Aristab,
Lithium,
Clonazepan,
Quetiapine,
Nicotine,
nicotine,
nicotine,
nothing,
nothing
brings me back
I should've died
but I survived,
my gran
brought me
back,
why, oh
why?
to endure another four decades
of being nothing,
despising footbal,
soccer, whatever,
can't eat
this
can't have
that,
can't love
a woman,
can't love a
man,
can't be
both,
nothing.
I
am
nothing
but
a giant
black
hole
in
the
sky
somewhere
somehow
I am
I'm not
nothing
can't
have
this
can't
have
that,
Can't
be
a lettuce
maker
a lettuce
creator
can't be
broken
yet I am,
and I
always
have been.
I am
a great
black hole
in the
sky
that
has landed
desires
everything
and get nothing
nothing.
Drugs, oh
so many
drugs
held me together,
yet sometimes,
I feel like
I'm gonna explode,
implode
into
a
giant
black
hole
in
the sky.
the sky.
the earth.
the end.
