Here, from The Land
Of Broken Dreams,
I sit.
Naked.
Terrible, terrible.
Awful to the sight
Dreadful to the soul
In the eyes of me,
In the eyes of
the beholder.
I sit and wait
for chemical sleep to
take me away
at least, for some hours
I am nobody
I've been nobody
I will be nobody
The overdose,
did nothing
than to steal some time and joy
from
those
who
really
love me.
I forgot to add
alcohol to the mix,
dipshit dumb me.
If I did so, I'd really be
nobody, I'd get
thin and dead,
gone to push up the daisies
an ex-awful blob of fat
bearded blob of awfulness,
It was Her.
It's always Her,
Who made me somehow forget,
one long neck -poof -
I'd join the choir of invisible.
Awful, I am still here,
still awful,
awful,awful,
veering into life,
escaping reality
for a few hours only
I wanna be dead,
but got no pulse to cut them off
I wanna be gone, but the noose too thin, and might
sever the head, and that's
worse than awful
to whoever finds me.
I wanna be dead
I wanna be dead
I'm tired of being alive and
yet
already dead inside.
I'm tired of this charade,
to hurt people
and then get hurt back again
I'm tired of me
and my awfulness.
fat blob of bearded fat
From here to nowhere, I wanna go
Don't want to stay
while the Witch, is content
with her life of nothingness,
I am tired of being nothing.
than
an
most
awful
thing.
From The Lands
of Broken Dreams,
Sleep will take me away,
oonly for a few
hours,
I got nothing left,
nothing good,
I am awful and rotten.
Fat fucking blob of fucking fat.
Fat slob, who did not amount to
nothing.
I
am
Awful.
